Fated Outcast; The Alpha's Cursed Luna

Asha

Do you know what it means to be a loner? No friends, no family, not even a mate. Sigh.. it's as if I'm cursed. To make it all worse, I have to endure an intense monthly heat cycle. How pathetic.

 Every single month, my body turns me into a beacon of desire, craving and yearning for the one thing I seem too be unable to have. A mate. While others are sunken in complete satisfaction I am sunken in complete frustration and anger of nothing being able to satisfy my monthly needs. I am meant to be used to it but I am not, how can I? With the stares of disgust I get everywhere I go, it only fuels the shame and dissatisfaction even more. 

 To top it all, my scent is a thick, and very sweet one which just can't be ignored. My pheromones are just too irresistible, and sadly I can't control them. I wish I could, but I just can't, it's not my fault I don't have a mate!

 Going out during this period of time makes me feel so embarrassed, as everyone looks at me with disgust, and shakes their head in disapproval.

It makes me want to disappear, makes me want to hide at least, but do I have a damn choice? No!

Till then, I am Asha.. just Asha, from the Crest moon Pack.

 This is my story.

Every single year. Every single month. Every single day

***

 My alarm clock rings so loudly today, and I groan, curse waking up so early in the mornings! My hand lazily stretched towards my bedside table, and tried reaching for my alarm clock through sleepy eyes. I turn it off, and groan loudly again, "Ugh!"

 I sit up, and my core clenches, and releases oxytocin throughout my entire body. I bite my lower lips in panic, "No, please."

 A familiar fire course through my entire body, settling sweetly at my stomach. 

 "Oh no, no, no!" I close my eyes, and exhale deeply, "Why does it have to be today?" I ask no one in particular.

 Shaking my head, and ignoring it, I get down from my bed, and head to the bathroom. What else can I do?

 I have my shower, dress up, and get ready to go to work. Today is the day, my manager would be opening a second restaurant, and of course I have to be present, but today has to be the day my body decides to betray me! Damn it!

 I grit my teeth. I really want to stay in, but I don't have a choice. If I'm not present at the opening ceremony of his second restaurant, I'll lose my job, not because my boss is some sort of wicked dude, but that's the policy, and if I lose my job, I won't be able to pay my tuition fees, and if i can't pay my tuition fees, I'd become a college dropout! Why am I so cursed?!

 I closed my eyes, and exhaled, "I have to be present. There's nothing I can do about it. It's not as if I can just go out, and just find a mate. You will be fine," I said amidst my pheromones that are already dancing in the air.

 Dear moon goddess!

 For some reason, it's quite heavy this month, "Oh well, it's not supposed to be more than the previous ones huh?" I open the door, and walk outside.

 I see a few people coming my way. Males. Oh holy molly! Desire course through my veins, and I just want to run up to one of them, and make him touch me inappropriately, but hell no I can't, it might be the last straw that breaks the camel's back, and I might likely be sacrificed.

 I bend my head as I pass one of them. I can't see his reaction but I can feel how he wrinkles his nose in disgust, and gives me a disapproving look. 

 I sigh, it's really not my fault. It's not as if you'll be my mate or something.. tsk that's not how it works stupid Asha.

 "Why don't you stay indoors at this time of the month?! Stop disgusting people!" I hear a sharp voice bark at me.

 I slightly raise my head to see a man looking at me with total disdain. Damn he looks so good, why can't he just help me in this state of mine?

 "I'm.. I'm sorry sir," I whisper, and hurry past him. 

 Something seems off about my heat this month.

I clench my fists, and keep on walking. No taxi driver would want me in their cab obviously, so I have to walk thirty minutes everyday in the morning to get to work, and thirty minutes back home till my heat ends.

 "Almost there," I mutter when I see a small crowd of people standing outside the new restaurant about to be opened. 

 I bend my head again, as majority of them turn to look at me, shaking their heads. 

Wait.. I'm not even close to them yet, what's the reaction for?

 I finally arrive there, and quickly walk past all of them, and reaches where my boss stands. He stops talking to whoever he is talking to, and turns to look at me.

 "Asha?" He calls, concern written all over his face. 

 Glad to say, my boss is the only one who understands my condition, and sympathizes with me, but unfortunately for me, he is already mated.

 "It's today."

 I nod in embarrassment, as I don't in anyway want his customers to leave because of me. I'm just one inconveniencing piece of sh*t.

 "If you don't mind sir, I'll step away. I don't want your customers to leave because of me," I say as politely as I can.

 He nods, "Sure."

 I walk away, to a very far end, where I know my scent might probably not be smelt by anyone, but not so far away so I can watch the ceremony.

 Soon enough, the ceremony begins, and my boss is addressing the crowd that is gathered to open his second restaurant. My boss, Lucas Westfire, is one of the most successful restaurant owners in the pack.

He should be the third or fourth most successful I don't really know, but one thing I know for sure is that a lotta people do enjoy coming to his restaurant to dine.

 I sit down listening to him speak, and desires courses through my body again. He looks so beautiful, he's just so good looking, why can't I have him? His tall muscular figure is one to die for, his broad shoulders, his well gelled hair, his perfect pair of green eyes, and the most kissable pair of red lips.

 Ugh! I just want him!

I clasp my thighs together, feeling so drawn to him all of a sudden. What is going on?

 He continues addressing them, and I can't hear a thing he says. All of my attention is just on him.

The desire for him keeps building in my chest. The way his lips move, just keep igniting a spark in my chest, even his hand's gestures aren't helping either. His smile at intervals, just makes my heart melt, and I just can't take it anymore.

 I get up, and walk towards him. I get to where he stands, and pulls his hand. He looks at me with disbelief flashing in his eyes, before he can say anything else, I wrap my hands around his neck, and slam my lips on his.