Honkai Shura Field: Dear, Who is She?

Chapter 30: The evil of civilization beyond comprehension, the real mob

'Home... Do I have a home... But where is my home...'

Akito seemed to have returned to the very beginning of his transmigration when he had just arrived in the Honkai world, and he was filled with excitement and ignorance.

As a teenager, he went back to his elementary school days and lived a carefree life.

Although he occasionally encounter some minor financial problems, overall he live a happy life.

But happiness is always short-lived. After the novelty wears off, endless loneliness and solitude follow, almost swallowing him up.

Every time there is a parent-teacher meeting, he see his classmates and good friends snuggling up to their parents.

'Only myself, always alone.'

Akito is not childish. He is an adult in his heart, but he can't help but envy them. It's not an exaggeration to say that he is jealous...

From the beginning to the end, he was just an ordinary boy who lived a carefree life relying on the system. He was neither brave nor strong.

On the way home, he saw three shadows around his classmates, but there was only one under his feet.

From that moment on, Akito deeply understood the truth——

This world does not belong to him.

He wanted to go home, no matter what the cost.

Akito has had many identities, met many people, experienced many things, and lost many precious things that he regarded as treasures.

'In the end, I am always alone, never able to escape the quagmire, always deeply trapped in it.'

'I couldn't even shout for help.'

Every time a copy is left, the feeling of loneliness from the depths of the soul will come flooding back.

'I can't even stop the crying that's right next to me, how can I reach out to the gods far away for help?'

Separation and withdrawal again and again make the already fragile soul even worse.

The naive young man who once had lofty ambitions, carried the blue sky to the South Sea, and set sail to cross the vast ocean, is now lost in despair and malice.

'I'm tired and want to rest... I don't want to move anymore, this is good...'

The silk thread became stronger and stronger, dominating the theater. Puppets appeared one by one, and Akito was one of them.

He couldn't even think, he was just a puppet being pulled by strings, like the mob, like all puppets.

Numb, incomplete, soulless.

His mind is filled with the ugliest images in the world. The world is cruel and people's hearts are dark.

In corners unknown to us, so many people are calling for help and so many people are crying out in grief.

Their feet were chopped off, their lips were torn off, and some had test tubes inserted into their bodies just to draw blood and sell it for money.

Some people had their college entrance exam scores replaced by others, their lives stolen, and they became beggars begging on the streets.

Some teachers are callous and abuse students at will, while parents applaud.

Some soldiers returned home in glory, only to see their families torn apart and their wives and children separated.

Seeing these, even the most passionate heart will be covered with a thick layer of frost and become icy cold.

The harm caused by human malice goes straight to the most vulnerable part of people's hearts.

Behind the glamour lies a despicable heart. People are always rotting and are never tired of the status quo.

Many people are so selfish, irresponsible to others, and evasive.

In a pale world, gray people seem out of place.

The world is so ugly. Let's destroy it! Destroy it! Destroy it!

[Wake up, now is not the time to give up.]

"…What are you talking about? You just want to kill me, don't you? Why, do you want to watch me struggle? And then show the most despicable and ugly appearance to please you?"

The puppet Akito suddenly became strange and started speaking extreme words.

[I don't.]

"Even now you still don't want to admit that you just treat me as a tool. If you are so great, why can't you make every ending perfect? Why do you let me be torn away from the world again and again!"

The puppet Akito roared hysterically. He felt that he shouldn't say that, but he couldn't control himself.

Emotions are a very strange thing.

It comes from people, but is difficult to control.

[I won't hurt you.]

"Do you believe this nonsense? Isn't the mission to kill the Herrscher of Domination? Isn't it to kill me?"

[...]

"Get out! Get out!"

The puppet Akito banged his head desperately, trying to erase the system from his mind.

Suddenly, that feeling disappeared. The puppet Akito raised his head and felt a different kind of warmth.

It is no longer a cold mechanical sound, but a living, existing sound, ethereal, clear, sacred and noble.

"You are my eternity, the last person I am willing to protect..."

"I will stay with you, across the twilight zone, until you no longer need me."

Gentle and brilliant spots of light began to appear on the puppet Akito's body. They attached to the silk threads and cut them one by one.

In just a moment, the silk threads entangled with the puppet Akito broke, disintegrated and fell apart.

At some point, a figure appeared behind the puppet Akito.

She walked with a beautiful figure, like a dark night with a cloudless sky and bright stars. The most wonderful light and darkness gathered in her demeanor and eyes, interweaving into such a gentle brilliance that the bright daylight could not see...

It is not any specific beauty in the world, but a concept, a concept of ultimate beauty.

"So now, I will stay by your side and not go anywhere."

She gently placed her hand on the puppet Akito and caressed it very tenderly.

In an instant, Akito's heart, which was filled with malice, suddenly became weak, and it even became fragmented...

"Ah!...!" A strong tearing sensation came from his soul. Akito threw Yun Feng aside, leaning against the wall and gasping for breath.

The other people in the conference room also cast strange looks at Akito. Looking at Akito's empty eyes, their pupils turned into snake pupils in an instant and then restored to normal, repeating this process over and over again.

"Hu... Ha... Just now... What did I say? System, system!"

Akito collapsed to the ground in panic. He was no longer under the control of the Herrscher of Domination, but he felt even more empty than a puppet.

"I was wrong. I shouldn't have said that. Please say something back... please, just one sentence..."

Akito used up the last bit of his strength and begged in a trembling voice.

No response. No response.

He remembers clearly every word he said when he was in puppet state and was possessed by negativity.

Akito now feels that he is extremely ugly, just like when his classmates insulted Mei...

Just as despicable and disgusting.

[Yes, I'm not dead.]

Akito perked up instantly, and a smile of joy unconsciously appeared on his face.

'I'm sorry...I shouldn't have spoken to you like that just now.'

Akito accepted the reality calmly. He would not make excuses for himself. Even though he was filled with negative emotions, those were indeed what he said with his own mouth, and they were his ugliest side.

If you make a mistake you must admit it, and if you get beaten you must stand at attention.

However, this also made Akito realize the horror of this copy, that is - when the consciousness began to collapse, Akito could not use any props! If it were not for the help of the system, I am afraid that he would have been assimilated by the Herrscher of Domination.

[It doesn't matter. Now you should know what the Herrscher of Domination actually represents.]

[They are not simple puppets, but the malice and despair of the entire civilization, all the meanness and filth are gathered here.]

[Let's put you aside. Is it true that the people chosen by the Herrscher of Domination are not strong-willed and kind-hearted? But they still became puppets in the end. This has nothing to do with your will. Personal will cannot override civilization.]

'That's horrible. I should be okay now, right?'

Akito didn't want to feel the state of being dominated by despair again.

[There is good news and bad news, which one do you want to hear first?]

'Uh, good first.'

[The good news is that you still retain the connection with the Herrscher of Domination, but you can remain undetected, thus avoiding being dominated by malicious intent again.]

'What about the bad ones?'

[Ahem, due to my intervention, the level of the Herrscher of Domination... emmm, has become a little stronger~~]

Akito had a bad feeling. 'How much is a little?'

[Add a "x" after the thousands...]

"…"

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