chapter 77
77. Philancepink is Normal
Fortunately, Momoka was still Philancepink.
She wanted to shut herself in for about a week after being shocked by the popularity poll results, but she received a call from the doctor. The content was that there was a fear of an emergency landing due to an airplane engine problem. If Philance Red couldn’t be called, Momoka was the only one who could do such an aerial job, so it couldn’t be helped. It was a weekday, but she skipped school and changed into her suit.
She was worried about what to do if her love power weakened and her suit wouldn’t respond to her, but somehow her weapon appeared. However, her body was very heavy and she got tired easily. The pistol that had supported Momoka like another pair of arms and legs, or like free wings, was a little heavy and difficult to handle like an ordinary pistol. Of course, she had never held an ordinary pistol.
Ah, I think the feeling of an declining athlete is probably like this. Or like the state just before getting a serious injury due to fatigue. Momoka realized firsthand that her life as a hero was getting shorter. What a nasty job, love is beautiful because it is invisible and cannot be measured, but a hero will know firsthand that his love is fading away in the very clear form of a decline in ability.
Even after the rescue operation went as planned, Momoka’s heart didn’t feel light. If she herself could no longer like Momoka, she might have to quit being a hero someday. Such anxiety seemed to be shaking the power of her own love.
Ah, this is probably a vicious cycle. If you start to doubt your feelings, your feelings will gradually drift away.
“People who can fall in love just by loving are lucky.”
Surely those people have never worried about whether they really love someone. Whether you are loved or not… you would be concerned about that, of course.
She was changing into her everyday clothes while holding strange worries that probably no one in the world would sympathize with, when good information came in on the surveillance SNS.
“Ah, my senpai has the afternoon off today.”
If I got senpai, would these worries disappear too? Is Momoka really cute when she’s in love? My senpai likes Momoka, but how much does he like her? Can I believe that he really likes me? If Momoka really fell in love, would does she transform with her feelings for her boyfriend or with her feelings for herself, or both?
However, if I could make Sora-senpai, whom Akane-san and the other heroes love so much, my boyfriend, I feel like this uneasy feeling would be a little relieved. I’ve really become a bad girl.
Because the ‘true feelings’ and dirty parts that I had been ignoring until now have shown their face, I feel gloomy. But an anxious face is not cute, so Momoka put on her usual ‘bright and cute junior’ act and got on the train.
“Ehehehehe, I’m here!”
“You didn’t tell me. If you had such a cute junior, you should have told me sooner.”
Since my senpai’s friend was also there, I made sure to show off my cuteness as a junior even more. A bright colored top that my senpai likes and an active but somewhat mature denim skirt. It’s a little different from Momoka’s taste, but I know that my senpai likes this kind of thing.
A bright girl who can be close friends like a female friend, rather than a high and mighty flower that is too elegant. In the end, my senpai finds this kind of Momoka cuter, right?
“Your everyday clothes are cute too.”
See, it worked after all. It was definitely her taste.
My senpai promised to tell me that I was “cute” when he saw me, but I think this is the first time he has complimented me specifically. That’s great, my senpai really does like me.
If I match my senpai’s taste while pretending to be a ‘coincidence’, then from my senpai’s perspective, Momoka is a fateful girl. My senpai’s feelings have been for Momoka ever since that day when I first took him on a mission.
However, Momoka has been working hard to monopolize my senpai’s love without getting arrogant. In order to shine even more by getting the best boyfriend, senpai. Then surely, I won’t feel anxious about my own cuteness anymore.
In order to make Momoka’s self-esteem, which was made of papier-mâché, real, I need Sora-senpai. I need my senpai’s heart to prove that Momoka is normal.
In order to do that, I need to make my senpai think I’m even cutter, and then I need him to confess to me.
“Sorry, Momoka! I have something urgent to do. Something seems to have happened to Uguisu and Himawari.”
We parted ways with our university friends and lined up at a ramen shop. My senpai, who is supposed to like Momoka, exaggeratedly put his hands together and bowed his head as he said this. That anxious expression was very similar to the face he had on that day when Momoka became convinced of his feelings. Somehow, it’s painful because I feel like I’m going to realize something unpleasant again.
My senpai was sincerely worried about the heroes. His anxious and worried face, timid yet somehow strong and trembling, was so serious that one might misunderstand that he was being obsessed over.
My senpai ran out of the ramen shop, leaving Momoka behind, not out of hypocrisy or ulterior motives, but because he was genuinely hot. It seems like Uguisu-san and Himawari-chan are arguing, but is my senpai going to stop them?
Why? For whose sake?
Could it be that my senpai is the kind of person who can make such a serious, anxious, and bitter face for anyone? If that’s the case, then the feelings that Momoka felt from my senpai that day wasn’t anything special to him?
For Sora-senpai, is Momoka not a special “cute” girl?
The emotions that had been jumbled up in a mess were stirred up even more. I envy those who can ignore all the inconvenient realities and leisurely enjoy lukewarm water at a leisurely pace, but unfortunately, Momoka couldn’t misunderstand until the end.
My senpai’s feelings for Momoka are probably not like that.
My senpai doesn’t like Momoka. He likes her, but not in that way.
“…Thank you for the meal.”
A thinking time worth a bowl of ramen was just enough to clear Momoka’s head. I ate in a hurry so my stomach is quite upset, but this was necessary.
I’m not such a stupid woman that I would become unable to act just because I reconfirmed a fact that I had vaguely realized. If my senpai isn’t in love with Momoka, then I just have to make him fall for me from now on. Even if it’s not a sure win, the situation is still advantageous for Momoka. That’s because Momoka has been working hard to ‘capture’ my senpai without getting careless until now.
I will match my senpai’s tastes, appear when he is bored, and offer my hand when he is lonely. If there were such a cute, well-behaved, and good junior, there’s no way he wouldn’t fall in love.
“That’s right, because Momoka is cute. That’s why.”
There’s no way. That’s what I thought, but the uneasiness deep down in Momoko’s heart was bubbling like boiling water. Uneasy, uneasy. So uneasy. It’s painful. What is this?
I want to get my senior for Momoko. For Momoko, everything is for the world’s cutest Momoko to be the world’s cutest.
My self-esteem, which had been mixed up once and then solidified again, had become strangely shaped.
“Senior, you idiot. Shouldn’t you rely on Momoko!”
The words that came out of my mouth when I found my senior wandering around inefficiently with cold sweat were like those of a righteous hero. I was myself. That kind of fervent shonen manga doesn’t suit a cutie.
“For Momoko, hero activities are part of everyday life. It’s the same as eating, getting dressed, going to school, and doing homework.”
Momoko’s sly side that she didn’t plan to reveal. It would be more advantageous not to teach that. Momoko’s mind was running wild, inefficient, and emotional, and she gradually began to lose track of what she was saying.
“Momoko doesn’t take solving cases as seriously as ordinary people think. Because it’s every day, I lose my nerve and my sense of tension.”
I shouldn’t show such an uncute side, but I wish Green and Yellow would disappear. She’s scheming and cunning, yet she’s the cutest. That’s what Ishidake Momoko is supposed to be. Momoko is not like herself in front of her serious senior.
“Right now, I’m trying to be a real hero of justice for my senior.”
What on earth made me say such a thing to my senior?
For some reason, Momoko, who is supposed to be the cutest of all, thought that the senior who was desperately trying to help the other heroes who didn’t matter was dazzling. I wanted to acknowledge my inefficient self that was moving for my senior .
That’s strange, strange, strange. This isn’t like Momoko. I can’t think of the dirty parts or the selfish parts as human, because it’s more perfect if there’s none of that. Momoko. Momoko is the perfect, cute, and ideal girl who is loved by everyone.
“Momoko might hate it, but… Philance Pink is really cool.”
Even so, my senior’s heartfelt “thank you” resonated more in my chest than “cute,” and the large mirror that had only reflected my own image until now suddenly became a window that connected to the wider world, giving me such a refreshing feeling .
Emotions that have nothing to do with cuteness, which are supposed to be irrelevant, sparkled like jewels, and my senior’s gaze, which I had never felt anything for before, became impatient and painful.
That’s probably the feeling Momoko wanted the most. That there are other forms of love besides cuteness, and that I, who think of my senior, shine much, much more than cute.
I felt that the “cool” I got from my senior was more precious than the “cute” of millions of people.
“…What should I do? Could this be it?”
I can’t control myself. However, my steps as I kicked the roof were the lightest they had ever been. The pouring rain welcomed Momoko with open arms, and as I felt my heart pounding in my senior’s arms, which were holding me tightly , I noticed that my body suddenly felt lighter.
My senior isn’t an accessory. Maybe, he’s someone Momoko likes. Someone who can teach Momoko about her charms other than her cuteness.
And, someone who can make Momoko “normally abnormal.”