Sweet Sugar Candyman

#32

I blinked my wet eyelashes, looking at Saheon hyung. My ears were ringing from crying so much. As I continued to breathe shakily and irregularly, he gently swayed his hips and asked softly once more.

“If it hurts too much, should we stop?”

“Uh… Hmm…”

While his mouth asked if I wanted to stop, the subtle, creaking sound of his lower body moving slightly reached my ears. I shuddered once more at the dull ache I felt below.

To be honest, it hurt. It hurt so much. It felt like my insides were being stirred with a hot poker. It felt like my body was going to split apart. The unfamiliar pain made me want to stop and run away right that instant.

A gentle bird-like kiss landed on the corner of my eye. Hot tears streamed down my cheeks. As his warm lips pressed firmly against my eyelids like a stamp, I slowly closed my eyes.

Knowing hyung’s personality as I did after all these years, if I told him to stop, he would. He’d check if my aching below was alright, soothe me by asking if it hurt a lot, and maybe even revert to his usual gentle self and comfort me.

But what then?

I had never imagined I would be able to do this with hyung, whom I had a crush on for so long. If I let it slide this time because it hurt, or if I stopped here, how would Saheon hyung treat me afterward?

I had always thought that the only person I could have sex with was someone I was going to marry, but I liked hyung enough to make an exception. Anything hyung did was fine with me. If I stopped now, just as I was about to take a step in a direction I had never imagined, would Saheon hyung be able to see me as anything more than someone he saw in pain?

I lifted my eyelids and looked at hyung through my tear-blurred vision. A large, soothing hand cupped my cheek. The warmth, so gentle it felt like it would burn me, threatened to bring on a different kind of tears.

Perhaps hyung would treat me like he always had. As if nothing had happened, without awkwardness, like before, as the boy next door he’d known for so long, as a close friend…

The conflicting feelings – the physical pain my body rejected and the heartfelt desire not to let this end – clashed, causing a fresh wave of tears to burst forth. I wrapped my arms around hyung’s neck and pulled him towards me. Seeing me cry but not refuse, hyung seemed to understand my answer.

“…Okay, good boy. Let’s try a little more. Don’t cry.”

The sensation of a burning poker filling me below had now become a numb tingling. I gasped, clenching my fists. Hyung’s hot breath touched my skin. He pushed his dick in with even more care than before. Still, the pain remained as my walls, stretched to their limit, strained.

Consoling, small kisses landed on my lips. On the corners of my mouth, my cheeks, my jawline, and just below my chin, he kissed me slowly as he continued to move.

“Ugh… Uhhn…”

“Still a baby, huh?”

“…No, uhhn, I’m not…”

“You don’t even have hair down there.”

Even with my eyes brimming with tears, I glared at hyung. He chuckled softly and playfully nibbled on the tip of my nose. It didn’t hurt, but it was enough to make it tingle.

“How does it hurt? Does it still feel like it’s tearing?”

His unexpectedly explicit words made me bite my lip hard. Hyung’s finger slipped between my lips. The feeling of his fingertip brushing against my closed lips made me loosen my grip slightly.

“You have to tell me. I don’t think I need more lube, is it too tight? Or…”

Hyung trailed off, a mischievous smile spreading across his face. The heavily implied rest of his sentence made my face burn even hotter than before. I mumbled indistinctly around his finger.

“I don’t know…”

“If you don’t know, who does? You have to tell me.”

Saheon hyung feigned ignorance, whispering with blatant cheekiness. I narrowed my eyes at him, then quickly looked away as he raised an eyebrow.

Heat rose from my body in waves. I worried that if anyone saw me, I would be completely red. My ears, my face, my neck, my body…

“…Too… Too big…”

“What was that? I can’t hear you.”

At his teasing despite hearing me perfectly well, a rather harsh, “Jeez,” slipped out. He chuckled and rubbed my tongue with the finger he had in my mouth, causing me to clamp my lips shut. But perhaps due to my sulky mood, I couldn’t help but pout.

The sound of him rubbing my wet tongue was obscene. A strange whimper threatened to escape me as a sensitive pleasure flared. Saliva pooled in my mouth, and I swallowed around hyung’s finger. My throat tightened with a gulp.

Saheon hyung wet his bottom lip with his tongue, then closed his mouth as if savoring the taste. The impatient expression on his handsome face, seen up close, was sexy. I swallowed again around his finger. Hyung muttered a curse under his breath, grinding his teeth.

“…Ah, fuck…”

Seeing hyung curse for the first time in my life surprised me, even given the situation. The gentle look in his eyes had vanished, leaving only a chilling impatience. Before I could process the drastic change in his expression, he leaned in as if to kiss me.

I held my breath, anticipating his lips, but he stopped just before our breaths mingled. His low sigh brushed against my skin.

“Uh… Hyung…”

Perhaps it was my imagination, but hyung’s dick inside me seemed to have grown even larger. I wondered if that was even possible, but the distinct feeling of my walls, already stretched tight, expanding beyond their limit was undeniable.

“What do you want hyung to do?”

It was a gentle question, as usual, but I noticed the urgency hidden within. It felt like he would pounce and bite me if I hesitated even for a moment. Hyung pulled his dick out slightly, then thrust it back in. The unexpected, shallow movement made me tighten my arms around him.

“…Ah! Ahhh!”

“How can I make it so it doesn’t hurt, Cheongmyeong?”

Perhaps because of the sudden assault, my muscles clenched involuntarily below. As I dug my nails into hyung’s back, he muttered in an impatient voice.

“Let’s try to relax a little, shall we? I might break it.”

Even his casual words made my ears burn. Given the situation, even words he used frequently felt suggestive.

“That’s it, breathe.”

“…Uh, huh…”

With another thud, his dick pushed in a little deeper. I bit my lip hard, suppressing the sounds that threatened to escape.

“It feels… much looser than before, huh?”

Hyung muttered as he pushed in deeper once more. My body was pushed upwards, bearing the full force of a grown man’s thrust.

“Huh, hmm… Slowly…”

The lube, now warm with my body heat, made a squelching sound. Hyung continued to grind his dick against my inner walls. My spread legs trembled, and I wrapped them around hyung’s waist.

“Does it still hurt?”

After a moment of consideration, I shook my head. It still hurt, but not as much as it had just moments ago, when it felt like my whole body was being ripped apart. It seemed my inner walls had adjusted to the size of hyung’s dick over time.

“Then, can I move?”

“…Huh?”

Hadn’t he been moving already? It hurt every time he moved… My lips parted slightly in bewilderment, but hyung was asking quite seriously.

It seemed he was serious, not teasing. I gulped. The news that what we had been doing so far wasn’t actually ‘moving’ left me flustered. Even if I had barely adjusted to the slight movements, if he moved any more significantly, I might actually tear.

Saheon hyung looked at me, seemingly holding back with the last of his reason. Knowing the fear of that sharp pain, I lowered my trembling eyes and spoke as evasively as possible.

“…G-gently, if you…”

“Okay. I’ll be gentle.”

His quick agreement suddenly made me less trusting. Hyung, who had been kissing my temple as if drinking my tears, had me tighten my arms around his neck. His weight pressed down on me.

Anticipating the coming pain, I squeezed my eyes shut, and physiological tears streamed down the corners of my eyes. As if what we had done so far was just a prelude, hyung’s dick buried itself fully inside me.

“…Uhhn! Haa, uhhn!”

For a moment, instead of pain, a jolt like a lightning strike shot through me, curling my toes. My trembling hands left long scratches on Saheon hyung’s back.

Hyung’s dick thrust in once more, splitting my spasming inner walls. A dizzying pleasure, like being hit in the back of the head, washed over me again.

“Ah- Ahhh, ah!”

The strange sensation I had felt when his finger was inside me returned, amplified tenfold. I heard hyung let out a short chuckle beside my ear.

It sounded like a moan of pain, but it was a different kind of pain. It was a sensation I could only describe as strange. My skin tingled, and my insides trembled. I felt a sense of precariousness, like I had been lifted to a great height and could be dropped at any moment.

“Hyung, hyung, ah! Huhhn, wait…!”

With another violent sound, hyung’s dick thrust in again. Seeing him begin to piston without hesitation, it seemed he had sensed the subtle change in my voice.

The pain didn’t matter anymore. The spot that had made my vision flash when he pressed it with his finger now transformed into an unbearable pleasure as his large dick rubbed and pounded against it.

My head spun. The sensation I felt from my erect dick, surprisingly, was the urge to cum. Helplessly swaying with hyung’s thrusts, I clung to him like a drowning man to a lifeline. As I wrapped my arms and legs around Saheon hyung, he showered my neck with small kisses.

The hair on his lower body felt rough against my buttocks. As I bucked my hips, unable to bear the surging excitement, hyung covered my moans with his lips. His tongue teased the sensitive flesh inside my mouth, amplifying the unbearable sensation instead of calming it.

“Mmm… H-huh…”

My muffled sounds came out like whimpers. Hyung’s rough, hot breath tickled my cheek. As the grinding thrusts below intensified, I gripped the sheets so tightly that the tendons in my hands stood out. My muscles clenched involuntarily, and hyung let out a low moan.

Someone else’s bones slammed against my buttocks painfully. My legs felt like they would give way, so I tensed my knees. Hyung cursed again, violently thrusting his dick into my completely relaxed walls.

My head lolled back. Uncontrollable moans escaped my lips as they parted with my struggles.

“Ah! Haa, uhhn, huhhn! Ah!”

“You feel so good, it’s beautiful.”

A short kiss landed below my jaw. It sounded like a compliment, but I was embarrassed. I looked at hyung with teary eyes. The heat radiating from him was intense. He took my fallen hand and wrapped it around his waist.

His skin felt hot against my palm. Every time he moved, I could almost feel the shape of his muscles shifting. The feel of the firm muscles in his back, waist, and shoulders suddenly sent a wave of unbearable excitement through me.

“Gently, hmm, I said gently, huhhn! Uh…”

As if to cut me off, hyung pounded relentlessly at that sensitive spot. Electricity coursed through my body, and I screamed, digging my nails into his back.

“S-s-uhhn! It’s weird, this is weird…! It hurts, hyung, uhhn!”

“Liar.”

“Ah, hmm, ahhn! Ah!”

Words tumbled out of my mouth, desperate attempts to stop the strange sensation. Yet, paradoxically, I also wanted it to continue.

My vision swam. The sensation emanating from my erect dick, incredibly, was the feeling of impending orgasm. I clung to hyung, my body tossed about helplessly by his thrusts. As I wrapped my arms and legs around him, he showered my neck with small kisses.

“Mmm, hnn, strange, strange… I think, hng!”

“It’s not strange, you should say it feels good.”

Hyung, who breathed out short, clipped words mixed with low moans, now had a completely blank expression. His face, having erased its usual gentleness and now furrowed with a frown, gave the impression of being absorbed in something rather than looking scary.

I gritted my teeth, making whimpering sounds, twisting my body as if trying to escape the strange feeling. But Hyung pressed down on me with his weight, as if trying to completely bind me.

It was my first experience being pinned beneath someone larger than me, completely enveloped in their embrace. The act of being held immobile in Hyung’s arms, receiving his dick below, made me feel as if I had become a fragile person.

“Ahh, hnn, strange, uh…! Hng!”

My heart seemed to drop, and then pleasure surged up from below. It was a terrifying, unfamiliar sensation, but somehow I instinctively knew that the culmination would feel good.

“Ah! Ahh…! Uh, haa, strange, hnn, Hyung!”

Saheon hyung, with his teeth clenched, continued the act of grinding against my inner walls. I wished he would stop, but contradictory feelings of fear and anticipation for what lay at the end welled up inside me.

The squelching sound of our coupling echoed in my ears. Struggling to keep up with the thrusting movements, I let out a silent scream at the dizzying sensation that surpassed the threshold of excitement.

My mind went completely blank. My heart raced, and my uncontrolled limbs trembled. When I came to, my whole body was convulsing with residual tremors. Gasping for breath and shivering, I realized I had come because of the semen soaking my stomach.

My vision was blurry, and I couldn’t come to my senses. With heavy eyelids, I unknowingly had my eyes half-closed when a strong, upward thrust jolted me, making me cry out, “Ack!” A low, threatening whisper followed.

“Where do you think you’re going?”