LIGHTNOVELWORLD Chapter 11 - Reina POV 2
Sigh… I messed up…
I’ve been feeling down since the afternoon on my day off…
I can’t believe I lost my composure in front of Mito-kun…
I called him over and then got drunk… and had him take me home…
The only saving grace is that I happened to have cleaned my room since my mother was coming…
I can’t show my usual life…
I can’t cook so I always have convenience store bento…
I don’t have money, so I buy the ones with discount stickers…
I’m not good at cleaning up… at least, I wouldn’t let it become a garbage dump…
“Mito-kun… was such a gentleman… he left without doing anything…”
There was no disorder in my clothes… he didn’t come into my room…
I’m not proud of it, but I’ve been picked up and nearly taken home before…
I never thought he’d run away…
“But… he could have come by for a bit…”
And… he said he wasn’t disillusioned, but… is that true?
He’s kind, so maybe he was just being considerate of me…
“Ugh… why do I drink so much?!”
It was my first time drinking alone with a guy…
A-and moreover… a guy I’m interested in…!
But, he didn’t show a single displeased face and was listening to my stories…
I wonder if he was really not bored…?
“But, when I asked him in the break room, he said he had fun… and that he wouldn’t mind being asked again… a secret just between the two of us…”
I-I’ve never been told something like that at such a close distance…!
Something in my ear… isn’t that something lovers do?!
My heart was pounding… I thought it was going to burst…
“Mito-kun… has a nice voice, doesn’t he… deep and… somehow thrilling…”
He doesn’t seem to realize that he’s popular…
Even Morishima-san seems to be aiming for him…
He’s been asked out by other female employees…
But he doesn’t seem to join often…
“And… when he takes off his glasses, he has a surprisingly cute face… I-I even ended up giving him a lap pillow…”
Although the manager told me to, I can’t believe I did that at work…!
It was my first time… giving a man a lap pillow… or having physical contact…
“…Sigh, it’s sad even saying it myself… a woman in her thirties, having her first time for such a thing…”
At this age, being a virgin, I wonder if Mito-kun would be put off…
No! We’re not even dating in the first place!
…I wonder who I’m making excuses to…
“It’s not like I’ve never had the opportunity… even though I was raised in an all-girls school, my university was co-ed…”
I didn’t have the time because of my father, my mother, my brother…
My family didn’t have money, so I spent my days studying to get scholarships and become an honors student…
When I became a working adult, I had to repay my student loans and send money back to my parents…
“…I’ve felt resentful… but they’re still my precious family”
But, because of that… I realized that I’m a virgin in my thirties…
I’ve never had a boyfriend…
“What a disaster! It’s not like I chose to be this way!!”
Before I knew it, all my friends were married with children…
Of course, there are many happy single people these days… it’s not embarrassing…
But, the wind still blows hard on single women in their thirties…
“I wonder what Mito-kun thinks about women like that… If it were me, I would run away…”
Sigh… How can I get along with men…?
How does everyone do it?
When to exchange contact info? When to call?
“My friends told me to just leave it and guys would come to me…”
The only ones who come are the worst kind of men…
Those who aim for adultery, or just want to get it on…
That’s why I’ve been feeling fed up…
“Mito-kun wasn’t like that… c-could I like him?”
I’ve never been in love… I don’t know…
“Huh? What time is it?… Ehh!? It’s already this late!?”
I started thinking from 1 o’clock… it’s already 3 o’clock…
I can’t spend my precious day off sleeping till noon… eating cup noodles… That’s no good…
Yes! Let’s do various things before getting closer to Mito-kun!
So, first of all, let’s clean the room!
W-who knows… he might come someday…
“Phew… okay… next is shopping…”
It’s evening huh… I want to try cooking…
If I go shopping and cook now, it will be midnight…
“…I’ll settle for ready-made meals and bento today… I’ll do my best from tomorrow!”
I can’t let my colleagues hear this…
I always talk so arrogantly…
I change from my sweatpants and sweatshirt into jeans and a hoodie.
Then I decide to walk, to also get some exercise.
“Phew… I’ve arrived. About an hour, I guess?”
I enter the supermarket and put food with discount stickers into the cart.
“There are many families and couples… I’m jealous…”
While thinking about such things, I also stock up for several days.
“Is this enough…? Ah— I was going to start cooking…”
So, I came to the unfamiliar fresh food section and the vegetable section.
“…What should I buy…? Vegetables are fine if I just cut them, right? Can I grill fish? I’ve never used the grill… I haven’t used a frying pan in years…”
W-what should I do…!?
I don’t know where to start…!
W-with this… even if we get along… Mito-kun will hate me…!
“…Is it impossible for me…? Wait…? Could it be… Mito-kun…?”
There’s Mito-kun… in casual clothes…
With a cute girl…
…That’s right.
He’s so wonderful… it’s only natural that he’d have a girlfriend…
What was I misunderstanding… I’m sorry for inviting you to drink…
That was total power harassment…
My heart… was enveloped in darkness…