Tupac: greatest rapper live

Chapter 9: moving to California



At 13 years old, my life felt like it was in constant motion, always shifting, filled with challenges but also brief flashes of hope. My younger sister, Sekyiwa, was 9, and even though we were only a few years apart, I often found myself amazed at how sharp and focused she was. I was the creative, restless one, always chasing new experiences and dreams, while Sekyiwa was grounded and methodical. She seemed to absorb everything around her, learning quickly, and there was always a sense that she was destined for something big.

I remember one evening, sitting at the kitchen table trying to help her with her math homework. She was breezing through it, while I was struggling. "Pac, that's not how you do it," she said with a little giggle, as she corrected me. I grinned sheepishly, not even trying to hide my embarrassment. "It's harder than it looks," I joked. Sekyiwa wasn't just smart for her age—she was brilliant, with this quiet, laser-focused determination that made you believe she was going to change the world someday. She was the one who kept me grounded, reminding me of my potential when I forgot it myself.

She was my anchor, the steadying force in my life when everything around me felt like it was spinning out of control.

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I spent countless hours with RZA, who was like a brother to me. We'd meet at Warehouse Gym, The gym was dusty, dimly lit, and had that kind of raw, unpolished character that you couldn't help but respect.

RZA and I spent hours sparring, talking, and dreaming about the future. He was always the one to push me, to believe that we were meant for something greater than the lives our environment seemed to offer. He had this unshakable confidence, and I admired him for it. We talked about our plans for the future, imagining ourselves achieving something big—being someone more than just kids from the projects. But then, in 1984, something happened that neither of us saw coming. RZA's pops got a job offer in Steubenville, Ohio, and his family decided to leave New York.

I remember the night RZA told me. It felt like the world was collapsing around me. "I'm leaving, Pac," he said, his voice steady but heavy with the weight of the news. "My family's moving to Ohio. pops got a job there. We're starting fresh."

The gym felt quieter that night, like it knew that everything was about to change. The usual noise and chatter were replaced with an odd stillness. James was in the corner, watching us quietly, giving us space but always keeping an eye on us. "Man, I can't believe this is it," I said, kicking at the dusty floor with my sneakers.

RZA nodded, and for a moment, there was a sadness in his eyes that he didn't usually show. "Yeah, but you know how it is, Pac. Family comes first. My dad says it's a chance for us to start over."

He gripped my shoulder, his eyes serious. "But listen, you gotta take care of your family, too. Don't let anything happen to them. You hear me?"

I nodded, though the lump in my throat made it hard to speak.

"We're brothers, no matter where we are. One day, we're gonna see each other again—on TV or something, doing big things," RZA said, trying to smile.

"Promise?" I asked, my hand outstretched, little sign we made.

"Promise," he said, gripping my hand tightly. "Keep writing those rhymes, Pac. Don't let anything stop you."

The next day, I watched as his family packed up and drove away. It felt like watching the only constant thing in my life disappear. The gym was never the same without him. James told me I could always come back to train, but it wasn't the same without RZA's energy, without the way we pushed each other.

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Not long after RZA left, my family had to leave New York, too. My father, Kenny, had passed away two years earlier, and with him went the financial stability we had. Mom had tried to hold it all together, but the bills piled up, and the bank loans became unmanageable. Losing the house was a matter of when, not if. Mom, who had always been the pillar of our family, made the decision to move to California. She'd gotten a teaching job near Compton, and Mr. Johnson, our old principal, had helped secure scholarships for Sekyiwa and me at a private school in Los Angeles. It wasn't an easy decision, but we had no other choice. It was our chance to start over.

California was a whole different world, though. Moving to Compton felt like stepping into the unknown. The neighborhood was rough, no doubt—gunshots echoed in the distance at night, and you could see the signs of gang territory everywhere. Still, there was a sense of unity in the community. Despite all the challenges, people looked out for one another. The weather was warm, the air thick with the scent of fried food and fresh fruit from the street vendors. The noise of the streets was constant, but it also had a pulse, a rhythm that I had to learn to navigate.

Mom was determined to make it work. Even though her addiction was taking its toll on her, she stayed involved in the community. She helped organize meetings, advocated for better resources for the kids in the neighborhood, and tried to be the kind of mother and community leader she once was. It was hard to reconcile those two sides of her—the strong, capable woman fighting for her neighborhood, and the vulnerable, broken woman struggling with addiction.

One of the hardest things was watching her slip further into addiction, but I did my best to stay strong for Sekyiwa. I helped her with her homework, read her comics to take her mind off things, and tried to make our new house feel like home. I was determined not to let the darkness take over our lives, not while I had Sekyiwa to look after.

Even in Compton, I made friends. Some of the kids I met were part of the Bloods or Crips, but I never got involved in the gang life. Still, I couldn't ignore the sense of loyalty and community they had. They'd protect you, even if they didn't really know you. Some of them could see that I was different, that I had other dreams beyond the streets. They respected that, and some even encouraged me to keep pushing forward, telling me not to get caught up in the life they were living.

The Crips and the Bloods had started as a response to the police brutality and systemic oppression they faced. They were originally formed as groups to protect their communities from law enforcement. But over time, the gangs had become what they were known for today—selling drugs, robbing stores, and engaging in violence. The world they were born into had shaped them into something they hadn't planned on. I couldn't blame them for wanting to survive, but I knew that the path they'd chosen wasn't the one for me.

One of my closest friends in Compton was Marcus, a kid whose dad owned a small movie theater. It was a bit of an old relic, a little rundown, but it became our escape. We'd sneak into late-night showings and sit in the faded red seats, watching movies that took us out of the rough world around us. Watching The Karate Kid, The Terminator, and other films like them, I felt inspired. Those films opened my eyes to what was possible—new worlds, new dreams, new lives. They fueled my own dreams of escaping, they told me the power of telling stories were I started to improve my story writing ability in lyrics.

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At the same time, my life in Los Angeles was like a world apart from Compton. The Los Angeles School for the Arts was filled with kids who had nothing in common with me. They wore designer clothes, rode fancy bikes to school, and talked about vacations in Europe. Their lives seemed like a distant fantasy to me, one I could barely relate to. Sekyiwa and I, on the other hand, didn't even have secondhand shoes to share. It was a constant reminder of how different our lives were.

At first, I had a hard time fitting in. I didn't understand their world, and they didn't understand mine. But I found a place for myself in the school's Drama Collective, the theater club. At first, acting felt strange to me, but I watch passionate for acting like I was stepping into a world I didn't belong in. But once I started, I realized how much I loved it. On stage, I could become someone else, leave my own problems behind, and step into someone else's shoes. It was an escape, and it became a sanctuary for me. I threw myself into it, and the theater became my second home, a place where I could express myself, a place where I wasn't just the kid from Compton or Brooklyn.

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Even with my newfound escape in theater, the reality of life at home was never far away. I watched my mom's addiction consume her, and it hurt. But I kept reminding myself that I had Sekyiwa to look after. I focused on my creative outlets—movies, music, and comics. They were my refuge, my therapy. I'd lose myself in the worlds of Spider-Man and other superheroes, finding strength in their resilience. Hip-hop, too, played a big role in keeping me grounded. The beats of Run-D.M.C. and Grandmaster Flash l will polish my free styling ability in the beat in the home

Through it all, I never forgot the promise I made to RZA. I promised him that I would take care of my family, chase my dreams, and never let the darkness take over. There were times when things seemed hopeless, but I kept going, holding on to the belief that one day, I would rise above it all.

The streets of Compton were tough, but they were also alive with a raw energy. Hip-hop culture was taking off, and I could feel it everywhere—the breakdancers, the graffiti, the battles in the streets. It was a constant reminder that even in the toughest places, art and music had the power to lift you up.


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