Woosung Alpha’s Sour Grapes

Chapter 33

A look of dismay spread across Tae-geon’s face. At this rate, it was inappropriate to even call him a recessive omega. Although he couldn’t know exactly how far Hyeon-woo’s manifestation had progressed, if he were to develop the ability to detect pheromones, K’s identity would likely be exposed.

He didn’t want to be caught in this situation where he was exploiting only Hyeon-woo’s body while pretending not to notice his feelings towards him.

If he had thought a little about why Hyeon-woo was so desperate to hide the fact of his manifestation, he could have easily understood.

Focused only on repaying the sense of betrayal he felt towards Hyeon-woo, who had recklessly used his body to pretend to be an alpha to deceive him, he hadn’t considered Hyeon-woo’s position. He had blamed Hyeon-woo for deceiving him, but looking back now, the deceiver full of stubbornness and hypocrisy was not Hyeon-woo, but himself.

When faced with emotions like lingering attachment, tenderness, and desperation that couldn’t be fully contained in Hyeon-woo’s gaze, Tae-geon would ask himself if something similar existed in his own feelings towards Hyeon-woo.

But it wasn’t so. It didn’t exist, and he didn’t want to know. The only thing he had was a capricious desire for Hyeon-woo’s body.

He knew all too well how futile, dirty, and ugly the end of a relationship born from a desire that couldn’t be taken responsibility for was. Wasn’t he himself the crystallization of that catastrophe?

He couldn’t destroy his preciously built relationship with Hyeon-woo like that. He didn’t want to jump into a catastrophic ending by putting his greedy feelings first. Moreover, hatred towards omegas was deeply rooted inside him.

Right now, he might not find Hyeon-woo disgusting. Because he was someone who had grown up together, flesh to flesh, by his side for over a decade. Because everything from his body scent and warmth to his bone structure, the touch of his hair on his fingertips, and the feel of his skin was familiar. Perhaps the satisfaction from that sense of stability was still so great that his hatred towards omegas was lying dormant.

But it was only temporary. Like with other omegas, the day would come when he would feel disgust and nausea at Hyeon-woo’s pheromones. He couldn’t guarantee that the exception for Hyeon-woo would be eternal.

After spending a heat with Hyeon-woo, Tae-geon would routinely spend another day rolling around with a different omega. It was the same on nights when he couldn’t sleep due to desire and thirst for Hyeon-woo.

Of course, he could never go all the way. Every time, nausea would well up and his insides would turn. There were times when he couldn’t bear the omega’s reaching hands and pushed them away, causing the omega to tumble to the floor. The carpet was stained red with the nosebleed of the struck omega.

The thought that someday Hyeon-woo might fall like that from his own hand made his heart sink. A strange sense of relief spread through a corner of his dizzying mind.

That he wasn’t wrong.

That turning a blind eye was the best option.

His heart, which was about to melt helplessly for Hyeon-woo, hardened each time. Nevertheless, he couldn’t bring himself to send Hyeon-woo to another alpha’s side. Just imagining Hyeon-woo seeking comfort in another alpha’s arms made him breathless and his blood boil. He was disgusted with his own twisted possessiveness.

…Why of all things.

Why, why an omega?

If only he had remained a beta,

Thinking that this relationship might have been a little easier then, Tae-geon, unable to resist drowsiness, collapsed onto the desk again.

*

“…What are you saying right now?”

The doctor sighed at Hyeon-woo’s repeated question and slowly explained again.

Today too, Tae-geon had left the house early in the morning and fallen asleep as if fainting during the lecture. Taking advantage of this, Hyeon-woo quietly slipped out of the classroom alone and visited the hospital. Thinking it wouldn’t take long since he just needed to receive the results, he lightly visited the doctor’s office, where he heard something unbelievable.

“Although unstable, you have both a uterus opening and a womb properly. Your pheromones are a bit weak, but not to a problematic degree. However, there is a disability in your olfactory function. Sometimes cases like this-“

“No! That’s impossible! I’m recessive. I don’t have anything!”

“I don’t understand what you’ve been saying. Look at this picture here?”

The doctor pointed to the ultrasound image on the screen. Hyeon-woo’s eyes shook violently as he looked at it.

“You see this white pouch? This is the womb. Although pregnancy would be difficult due to the thin lining, it has the proper shape.”

“…Surely… at the previous hospital…”

“The hospital where you were first examined didn’t do a tissue biopsy, right? This result is more accurate. It seems there was a misdiagnosis. I’ve corrected the medical information, so you can go now.”

It was like a bolt from the blue.

Since when? Suddenly? Why?

Hyeon-woo left the hospital and walked like a madman in the rain that had started to fall steadily, his eyes unfocused.

Just a few months ago, when he was obsessed with masturbation, there was no uterus opening that could be felt by his fingers. Hadn’t his manifestation ended completely before graduation? The doctor had clearly diagnosed him as a recessive omega. That he should have manifested as an alpha but seemed to have manifested as a recessive omega. Due to some external variable. Because of Tae-geon’s pheromones. The pheromones of a dominant alpha.

The pheromones of a dominant alpha…!

His heart sank to the floor.

Hyeon-woo, who had stopped abruptly in place, frantically counted the dates in his head.

The day he first mixed bodies with K.

The memory of that night when he had fainted several times from pain rather than pleasure due to the dominant alpha’s pheromones was still vivid. The alpha’s pheromones filling his lungs were not sweet at all. It felt like his whole body was being stabbed with sharp needles.

The inside of his lower abdomen, which had convulsed several times complaining of a hot burning sensation, exactly in that area, now had a womb.

As his encounters with the alpha repeated, the sensation felt there gradually changed. The pain dulled over time, and a different kind of stimulation began to arise.

The alpha’s pheromones, which had only been painful, also transformed into a stimulant like an aphrodisiac at some point. After countless nights when he couldn’t bear without masturbating every night, unable to forget that sensation, days finally came when the alpha’s pheromones felt incredibly ecstatic.

As the number of times he accommodated the alpha’s dick, an indescribable pleasure took over his body. There was no more pain in their encounters. Thus, his body was gradually mani-manifesting to fully accept the dominant alpha’s pheromones.

Hyeon-woo’s face turned pale.

…There’s no way Tae-geon didn’t know about this.

At twenty. Even when he was first diagnosed as a recessive omega, he hadn’t felt this much despair. The time he spent resenting the situation he faced and being pessimistic about himself wasn’t long. Rather, he quickly resigned and accepted it.

It was because the cause of his manifestation lay with Tae-geon. He knew that even if he went back to the past, the situation wouldn’t change. Because he would never have been able to leave Tae-geon’s side.

But this time was different. It wasn’t a manifestation caused by Tae-geon. It was the price for the sin of pursuing pleasure in another alpha’s arms.

Just when he was feeling his soul being ground away by deep loss and self-loathing, mixing bodies with others without emotion while unable to show even a corner of his heart to the one he loved, he met K. A dominant alpha who was the spitting image of Tae-geon’s physical conditions.

He had to admit. That there was no sacrifice or nobility in his choices after that. There was only desire and pleasure.

It was divine punishment.

The price for thinking of you while craving pleasure in another alpha’s arms. The price for impure and ugly desires.

Not even knowing that his body was stupidly changing into an omega.

His vision flickered incessantly. His legs gave out and he could no longer stand. Hyeon-woo collapsed messily on the wet ground.

Whoosh-.

The rain was pouring fiercely, but Hyeon-woo didn’t care, as if he couldn’t feel anything. Because the despair, disgust, self-loathing, and guilt stabbing his heart like a dagger were much more painful and colder than the falling rain.

Not even a proper cry could burst from Hyeon-woo’s mouth as he collapsed.

The reality that it was no longer a manifestation caused by Tae-geon became unbearable for Hyeon-woo.

It was you who made me an omega.

You’re responsible too. So you should sympathize and pity me, who became an omega, who had no choice but to make these choices.

You should forgive me.

Only now that he had lost it did he fully realize that the fact he had treated as an indulgence that Tae-geon couldn’t fully hate him for manifesting as an omega actually held a much greater meaning in his heart, incomparable to that.

Hyeon-woo only now realized that he had been intoxicated by such an arrogant illusion, thinking that Tae-geon had made him an omega, and therefore he was Tae-geon’s only omega, without even knowing it himself.

“…Hic, hic…”

Hyeon-woo laughed bitterly, shaking his shoulders like a madman.

It’s all because I’m a dirty rag. Because I’m an omega crazy for alpha pheromones. But, Tae-geon. Actually, it’s because he was a dominant alpha like you. Every single time I shared body heat with that dominant alpha, mixed bodies, and felt his pheromones, there wasn’t a moment when I didn’t think of you. Wishing that this alpha caressing my hair and craving me was you, making impossible wishes, that’s how I indulged. So I guess I’m being punished. I’m sorry, I’m sorry, Tae-geon. I’m sorry for allowing another alpha besides you by my side.

I’m sorry for constantly coveting you.

He cried silently for a long time, curled up in the pouring rain.

Notes:

Tell him its you whos barebacking him everytime he’s in heat TF