Sweet Sugar Candyman

#30

“…Huh?”

I quietly stared at Saheon, who was making an incomprehensible sound. His hand, which had been slowly brushing my bangs aside, traveled down past my eyes and gently cupped my cheek.

“Do you like it?”

It was clearly a question that was not meant to be answered, but it seemed Saheon didn’t notice. His gaze sparkled dangerously.

“Ah, no… that is…”

My throat moved up and down significantly. I wasn’t sure if I should be thinking this with Saheon in front of me, but I felt like prey placed before a predator. Looking into his eyes, which shimmered with a dangerous light, I felt as if I would be devoured whole, bones and all, at any moment.

Instinctively sensing the danger, I moved a little away from him. But the more I distanced myself, the closer he came.

My pupils trembled, unable to keep up with the sudden change. The kind brother I had known until now was gone, replaced by someone who seemed both strange and precarious. His hand, which had been touching my cheek, slid down my neck and lightly wrapped around the back of it. Saheon, who had been dangerously close, smirked and playfully tapped my nose with his fingertip, adding teasingly,

“You’ll remember this, right?”

He moved even closer to me. I felt as if I were caught in a trap, unable to move, as if he were about to sink his teeth into the most vulnerable part of me. Even as we entered a dizzying distance where we could feel each other’s breaths, he didn’t stop, and suddenly, something soft and warm touched my lips.

Even after our lips met, I couldn’t immediately grasp what was happening. My mind was flashing with red alerts. Saheon’s hand firmly grasped my trembling wrist.

The lips that had been still began to part slightly, and Saheon gently bit my lower lip, starting to suck on it. My wrist, which had been aimlessly swaying in the air, was pulled down to the bed.

My heart raced with shock, manifesting as a fine tremor in my hands. The light tremor that began at my fingertips spread through my arms, shoulders, and throughout my entire body.

Saheon, as if to soothe me, lifted the hand that was holding my wrist and gently intertwined our fingers. I squeezed my eyes shut as his tongue dove into my mouth, causing my body to shudder.

His soft tongue cautiously brushed against the rigidness in my mouth. My ears turned red, and I tightened my grip on his hand.

Saheon was kissing me. But it was merely a concept in words; I hadn’t accepted it as reality. In this surreal reality, my mind was becoming hazy.

I didn’t know what was happening. The lewd sound of our saliva exchanging was so embarrassing that I wanted to run away immediately, yet the act of exploring my mouth felt too good.

I had been stiffening my body to avoid interrupting Saheon’s movements as he explored my mouth, but when he finally released my lips, I gasped for air.

“You should breathe through your nose.”

Saheon, who playfully tapped my nose again, spoke with a voice laced with laughter. Still lingering with the pleasant sensation that had brushed against my sensitive areas, I cautiously opened my eyes.

Saheon was right in front of me. As I gazed at his lips curving into a smile, I bit down on the soft flesh inside my mouth. My face felt like it was on fire.

He was still holding my hand. I turned my gaze slightly to look at the hand that was touching his, then closed my eyes again. The heat radiating from my body was making my head spin.

As my head, which had returned to its original position, was pulled back, it was because Saheon had grabbed my chin with the hand that wasn’t holding mine. As I kept my eyes closed, I could hear Saheon chuckling softly. A light breath against my skin sent shivers down my spine.

Unlike before, perhaps because he had given me a warning, Saheon approached me more actively. He traced my sensitive palate, and when he sucked on my tongue, I involuntarily let out a strange sound, almost like a whimper.

When a sound I never thought I could make escaped me, I couldn’t contain my embarrassment. Saheon’s breathing grew heavier, pressing his body against mine, making me feel even more ashamed.

I couldn’t bear the tingling sensation in my heart. I grabbed Saheon’s shoulder and gently pushed him away. He willingly followed my touch. I exhaled through my mouth, looking at him with blurry eyes.

Saheon, who had half his legs draped over mine, smiled softly and kissed the corner of my mouth. The stimulation brought forth another strange sound, a pleasant sensation.

I jumped in surprise and quickly closed my mouth. This was strange. This didn’t feel right, yet I couldn’t deny it.

Caught off guard by the unexpected storm, I had to watch as Saheon removed his shirt. Seeing his abs, broad shoulders, and toned arms right in front of me made me involuntarily gasp.

Saheon, shaking his head lightly to fix his messy hair, chuckled at my dazed expression. As I instinctively stole glances at his bare upper body, my face turned bright red, and I barely managed to speak.

“…Tongue, hyung… why…?”

Perhaps to soothe my fear, which felt like riding an unsafe roller coaster, he whispered softly.

“You said you wanted to do it with me.”

The meaning of “wanting to do it” was understood in an instant. My face, which I thought couldn’t get any redder, exploded with embarrassment. I was so flustered and ashamed of the high-level words I had never heard before that I wanted to run away. I stammered, trying to explain.

“I, I, when…!”

“Cheongmyeong is popular and handsome, so you said you wanted to do it with me.”

How could he interpret my words like that? I was so flustered that I didn’t know what to say, my mouth opening and closing like a goldfish. Saheon, who had completely distorted my words, asked as if there was something wrong.

“Don’t you want to?”

It wasn’t that I didn’t want to… I looked up at Saheon with trembling eyes, my mouth shut tight. My heart was pounding so hard that my whole body was shaking.

“You said you wanted me to teach you.”

With a subtle whisper, Saheon’s hand slipped inside my shirt. When his high, warm body temperature touched my bare skin, I flinched, and my body jolted. Without hesitation, he wrapped his large hand around my lower back. Before I knew it, his hand had climbed up to my ribs, and in the blink of an eye, my shirt was gone.

The hot gaze that touched my bare skin was raw. Saheon let out a low breath. The thick breath, filled with excitement, made my fine hairs stand on end. I began to squirm as the heat slowly entered my lower body, pushing against Saheon’s shoulder. I felt like I was about to cross an irreversible river if I continued.

“…Hyung… please…”

“What should I do? What do you want, Cheongmyeong?”

I squeezed my eyes shut at the clear presence of another person’s arousal touching my thigh. My head was spinning with a red pleasure.

Saheon kissed me. He was excited to see me. So, did that mean he wanted to sleep with me?

Being of an age where I knew everything, I was well aware of how sexual relations between men and women occurred. I didn’t know much about relationships between men, as it was never taught in textbooks, but it couldn’t be that different, could it? I bit the soft flesh inside my mouth and mumbled.

“I…”

Having looked at only one person since childhood, I had imagined this situation, though not often. Perhaps due to my lack of experience, those imaginations always ended halfway, but it was true that I felt desire for Saheon to the point where I thought I couldn’t live with him anymore.

But I had always been told that such actions were only for those you would marry… So, did that mean Saheon liked me and was doing this?

In Korea, men can’t marry each other, so dating would be… but…

My overloaded mind was filled with disjointed thoughts. My brain, which didn’t even know what it wanted, felt like it was about to explode.

Saheon, as if telling me to think slowly, took my hand and gently kissed the tips of my fingers. The soft kiss that lightly touched the tender flesh beside my nails felt like it was urging me to make a decision.

The combination of pleasure I had never tasted and my dizzying head made me want to run away. Yet paradoxically, I also wanted to continue this pleasant sensation.

“If you don’t want to, I’ll stop here.”

Saheon whispered in a low, chilling voice. After kissing my fingertips once more, he looked down at me quietly. The warmth of his body against mine was too intense.

This was the first time I had seen such a dangerous expression. I swallowed hard. Suddenly, the heat of another person’s body against my bare skin felt too hot. Saheon locked eyes with me and brought my hand to his mouth again.

He lightly kissed my finger, then gently bit the tip, as if to tell me to look straight at him. I felt the sharp sensation on my fingertip. Saheon lightly nibbled on the tip of my finger before starting to suck on it gently. The strange heat radiating from my fingertips made it only natural for my lower body to respond completely.

“Huh?”

Perhaps because he had my finger in his mouth, his pronunciation was unclear. A strange vibration traveled through my fingertip.

The subtle and secretive urging was overwhelming for someone like me, who was not immune to such things. The heat around my eyes was so intense that I felt like tears would fall at any moment.

Now, as Saheon began to suck on my fingertip, making lewd sounds and slightly hollowing out his cheeks, I took a deep breath as if to make a decision, then bit down hard, revealing my heated feelings.

“…I can’t hurt you, hyung…”

“…Huh?”

It was the same question, but the tone was different from before. Saheon’s face turned slightly puzzled, as if he had been hit with an unexpected attack. I couldn’t hide my flushed cheeks and lowered my gaze.

“If… if we do that… I don’t think I can bear to see you in pain. I’m worried it’ll hurt…”

The more I mumbled my incoherent words, the stranger they became. I bit my lip tightly. Saheon’s gaze landed on my cheek. After a brief pause, he opened his mouth.

“Was I the one who would be on the bottom?”

With a hint of laughter in his voice, I turned my head away, avoiding his gaze. He brushed aside his messy bangs and let out a low chuckle. It was a habit of his when faced with the unexpected. I felt like my whole body was on fire from embarrassment.

I should be grateful that I could do something I never thought I would do with someone I had loved my whole life, but I wondered if I had overstepped my bounds, so I quietly kept my mouth shut. If I were him, I would probably find my behavior unpleasant.

But then Saheon lifted me up effortlessly, and this time, he had me straddle him. With only my lower half covered, I was shocked once again by the raw desire pressing against me. Leaning back against the headboard of the bed, Saheon whispered languidly.

“Try kissing me.”

With both hands resting on his shoulders, I swallowed hard again. My mouth felt dry, and my heart was pounding fiercely.

“Come on.”

The bare skin touching my palm was hot. I could neither move nor do anything but stare at him. Saheon, who burst into a small laugh, reached out and fixed my hair.

“What’s with all this embarrassment?”

Being treated like a clear child, I bit the soft flesh inside my mouth and quietly lowered my gaze. Saheon coaxed me with a soothing voice.

“Maybe it’s better if I do it?”

The almost established statement painted a vague picture of the future. My heart began to race with a mix of anticipation and anxiety.

In an instant, my vision flipped. I felt the soft touch of the bed behind me again. Saheon, who had completely covered my body, pulled me close enough that our lips were almost touching.

Expecting another kiss, I closed my eyes, but there was nothing touching my lips. Saheon chuckled softly once more.

I slowly opened my eyes to lips that I couldn’t quite reach, even after waiting. I could see a cool, curved smile. The breath mixed with heat felt good. In a precarious distance, where it seemed like we could touch, I matched my gaze with hyung’s and, like a thief, rubbed my lips against his before quickly pulling away.

It was an impulsive act. My heart raced anxiously, like someone who had done something they shouldn’t have. But it seemed hyung took it rather positively.

“You’re doing cute things too.”

“…I’m sorry.”

“See, I can’t even scold you.”

His ringing laughter made my head spin. Hyung, Saheon, gently cupped my cheek as if to praise me and whispered languidly.

“Good job. Now, open up.”