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College the inevitable source of unprotected, unauthorized sex and drugs.

I mean it not really were it started or the only place you can find it, but it most certainly is it's playground.

The intake of contraception for the females that do not trust the protection used by the males is now overly excessive, it's now more common than taking pain killers or drugs for headache.

College is the place where life begins but trust me when I say it can be the epitome of someone's life's distruction it all depends on the role you're playing, are you the player, or the victim.

And most importantly *Can You Play The Game*

What was your first taught when you got to college,

was it "omg I'm finally going to college to fulfill my dreams of becoming something grate, am gonna read hard and make good use of my time "

OR was it " waw am in college, I finally have a chance for a fresh start "

OR maybe it was "waw am in college I gonna enjoy my life now, party hard, make new friends, have fun and make crazy memories I can share with my loved ones and kids in the future" cause I most definately had all three in mind.

and now I have no emotions.

am just sitting at the Conner of my room reminiscing my past mistakes and hating myself for my own foolishness, and trust me, it is not a good feeling.

You hate yourself so much you which it was all a dream but unfortunately you already made the mistake and you can't rewind Time.

you can't take back the bad and leave the good you can only try to fix your mistake trying not make another one.

Hi everyone my name is TESSICA SAWYER and I am a nineteen year old 200level Anatomy student in the Niger Delta university Wilberforce island Nigeria and yes I am a Nigerian and you'll be intrigued to know the decisions we Nigerians make in college.

Let share a brief history of my year one.

It was my first week in college and I was trying my best to be exceptionally beautiful so i would avoid being made fun of.

The one thing I hated more than any other thing in this world was being publicly humiliated or disgrace of any sort. I was a shy person and I wanted to remain that way I didn't want to atract any unnecessary trouble or Attention.

But that day it seems like I really made out time to drag attention and be insulted.

It was a Wednesday Evening and my friend queen just called and said she was waiting for me at the school Gates, that her things were to much for only her to carry and that she needed help, so I got dressed and left the hostel heading for the gates.

I've always felt like all eyes were usually on me but today it felt like all eyes were really on me for some reason.

I was wearing a pink puffy crop top and a shot tight skirt, normally when I dressed like this at home people always call me beautiful and ask for my number but now in school it feels like I look wierd and funny.

As my heart kept pounding in my chest and that's when I remembered Amaka telling me to never wear that top and my shoulders dropped condescendingly, I was feeling less confident and felt like going back, but I was already in the field and queen must be waiting for me at the gate what if she gets mad at me for coming late or probably start coming by herself and then I have to start begging for her forgiveness " ah what have I gotten myself into and how do I get out" I frowned and felt like crying when a voice woke me from my delema.

" Hey, fine girl"

I turned to the field and my eyes fell on the group of boys who just finished playing football and was now focus on me.

" You're to pretty "

Now everyone was looking at me, all eyes were literally on me,I was shaking, I loved being the center of attraction when it's about beauty, but this attraction didn't feel right, he continued confessing his feelings for me as the moment became more awkward than ever.

" I could take a bullet for you "

" I can die for you"

Seriously someone should just kill this guy he's embarrassing me and I really hate being embarrassed.

" See, I can do anything for you, my love " I really wanted him to stop so I smiled at him while nodding my head and I started walking faster when I heard someone say " they are insulting her and she is smiling" he said as him and his friend that were passing by started laughing, thinking that would be the end as the boy stopped confessing his love.

Then I heard his friend ask him " would you really die for her" and he said "god forbid that thing " and they all laughed.

I didn't stop to get another look cause I was to embarrassed to even stand so I just kept quite and kept walking even though I felt like the ground should swallow me.

I got to the gate and saw my Friend waiting for me I ran and hugged her as she kept complaining about her journey and the stress her brother had put her through I laughed and conforted her before narrating my story to her and she burst into laughter, " of course they were making fun of you " she laughed more " and what are you wearing didn't you look at the mirror" she said I guess I should have abandoned her and went to change but what was I expecting she is my Friend she's allowed to laugh but those idiots weren't, I felt like hiding until the coast was clear but I had no hole to hide I just had to close my eyes and do the needful, go back to the hostel and set these clothes on fire cause am never wearing them again.

I was able to get to the hostel successfully and got Changed ASAP thinking it was over but that wasn't it at all.

It turns out I now have a trauma, I can't go out without asking about five people how I look and I always let Amaka choose my clothes for me like a baby that can't go out without her mother's permission.

I stood in the line for my medical verification as I heard some people talking about the girl that taught they were flirting with her not knowing it was an insult as she was stupidly smiling at them.

I turned to them and one if them pointed at me " oh look , that's her" and they all kept laughing.

What the heck I taught no one remembers that, I silently waited for my turn in the line but it never came, the workers said they were done for the day.

what a waste of my precious time only to get more insult.

Apparently you have to have a number to see the doctor, how tipical.

After that, i decided to visit my hostel.

I have been staying with Amaka in her hostel since my hostel used to be a boys hostel and is not ready for the girls to move in yet.

I entered the hall and greeted the matron as she blessed me with her sweet words of praise even though she was only meeting me for the first time, she asked for my room number and I told her " room 9" and she directed me while singing the praises of the girl that had already moved in.

She showed me my room and left.

Wow, I was nervous am finally going to meet my new room mate I hope she is nice.

I was about to open the door when I heard some gossip girls.

" I have gist for you girls" one of them said and you know us girls, we are always looking for one gist or the other so I gave a listening ear.

" You know that girl that they were insulting in the field yesterday she was in the medical line today "

And to my surprise 'i was the gist' are you serious right now, I taught this was a university, I taught things happened more often in the university, so why am I the sole topic.

Is it a coincidence or is it just my faith, is it that the whole school knew or do a particular set if people just keep following me where ever I go talking about the exact same thing.

Hmmmmm (sign)

I stop listening to there gist since it wasn't knowledgeable anymore, I mean this is college, things should happen more often, someone should get drunk and run naked around the hostel, someone should humiliate her boyfriend for cheating or humiliate another girl for meeting her boyfriend infact someone should just die for a stupid reason.

" Did you here; the assistant hostel rep for this hostel just died" a girl said to her friend as they walked past me.

Did my stupid wish just came true,I mean I was referring to the idiot that humiliated me I didn't mean for someone else to die. I've always been told that I had a gifted tough and what ever I say would come true but I didn't take it seriously " omg what have I done " I bumped my head at the door and it swung open " gasp " I blinked at the person I was seeing inside my room ' am I being punished right now or is this just faith' .....