The Villainous Noble Who Kept Rewinding After Death: The Story Somehow Changed When I Committed Suicide

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The Villainous Noble Who Kept Rewinding After Death: The Story Somehow Changed When I Committed Suicide

Chapter 123: A Beautiful Way of Living

Three days had passed since I encountered the Spirit of the Moon, and I decided that I would leave this country the next day.

Having stayed in this country much longer than planned, I needed to return to the Empire soon, or I wouldn’t make it in time for the academy entrance exams.

If I missed them, as usual, I might lose consciousness, and by the time I realized it, everything would be over.

“Fiera. I’ll be leaving this country tomorrow.”

“Got it.”

On the day I received a kiss from the Spirit of the Moon, after returning to Shuvina’s house and resting in my room, Fiera and Shuvina, both wearing unusually serious expressions, entered the room.

They asked me about her again at that time, but after I continued to answer a bit tiredly, I was finally freed from the barrage of questions.

Afterward, I put earrings on Fiera, whose mood had improved, and chatted a little with Shuvina, who had a longing look in her eyes, before calling it a night.

From the next day onward, I focused on my eye treatment and mock battles with Fiera, gradually getting my dulled body back to its original state.

Finally, since the eye treatment had concluded, I decided I would leave this country tomorrow.

“What about Shuvina?”

“I plan to talk to her shortly. What are you going to do?”

“I’ll wait. I don’t want to be a bother.”

“Is that so? Then I’ll go.”

“Take care.”

As Fiera saw me off, I exited the room and walked down the hall toward Shuvina’s room, knocking and waiting for her response.

“Who is it?”

“It’s me. Do you have a moment?”

“W-wait! I’m tidying up the room right now!”

When Shuvina said that, I could hear her moving around busily inside, and after about five minutes, the door slowly opened.

“Sorry to keep you waiting. You can come in.”

“Understood.”

The inside of her room, though quickly tidied, was very neat, with not too many items, giving off a calming atmosphere.

“It’s embarrassing if you stare at me like that.”

“Sorry. I just really liked the vibe of your room.”

“R-really?”

“Yeah. The Royal Castle was similar, but I love that it’s not overly decorated. It’s really soothing.”

“I’m glad you like it!”

Shuvina, perhaps happy to have her room complimented, smiled and had me sit in a chair, then took a seat beside me.

“Why are you sitting next to me?”

“Why not? More importantly, what’s up today?”

“Actually, I just talked with Fiera. My eyes are all healed up, and I decided to leave this country tomorrow. So, I wanted to have a proper conversation with you.”

“Oh… I see.”

Upon hearing the reason I came here, Shuvina clearly became downcast, but she quickly looked back at me with a serious expression.

“Eir. I know you plan to leave me in this country. But I want to be with you more. So, won’t you take me with you?”

“You noticed, huh?”

“Just a hunch. It seemed your goal was to enter this country, and now that you’ve accomplished that, I felt like I’d be left behind.”

“Well, you probably understand that I’m not changing my mind, right?”

“Yeah. But I’m not changing my mind either. Because I… love you!”

As Shuvina said this, her long ears turned red, her white cheeks flushing as well.

“First things first. I noticed your feelings. However, I have no intention of reciprocating. This goes for both you and Fiera. I decided to leave you behind knowing that. Do you understand the significance of that?”

“I understand.”

“In that case, it’s best you give up on me. Romantic feelings shift based on circumstances, and right now, you’re simply mistaking your feelings for a boy your age. You’ll forget in time.”

“That’s impossible! I think your way of living is beautiful. I want to witness your entire life up close. How you’ll live, what experiences you’ll have, and how it all ends. I want to see everything about you. Even if people call me crazy, I don’t care. This is my decision, and I won’t back down even if the whole world denies it!”

As Shuvina said this, she placed her hand on her chest and gently closed her eyes, as if imprinting her words in her heart.

After witnessing her demeanor, I instinctively covered my eyes with my hand and looked up at the ceiling.

(How did it end up like this…?)

At first, she said she couldn’t understand my values or thoughts, and even after the duel with Ryan, she had looked at me disapprovingly.

Yet somehow, she accepted everything about me as if we were destined to meet, saying she still wanted to be by my side.

I couldn’t understand her at all and let out a huge sigh.

(How do I refuse this… ah)

Her feelings had become just as heavy as Fiera’s, and though I mulled over various excuses, none felt solid enough.

However, I remembered a certain girl and thought that if I used her as a reason to decline, it might work.

“I understand your feelings well. But it’s still not feasible. I haven’t told you yet, but I have a fiancée. If you and my fiancée meet, it’s bound to become troublesome, so this is where it ends for us.”

“I had a feeling about that.”

“Huh?”

I thought this would allow me to leave Shuvina behind, but her unexpected reply had me instinctively answering back.

“I didn’t realize you hadn’t said anything, but I knew you were a noble from the Empire. Plus, I could guess your true form is very handsome. I anticipated you having a fiancée as well.

Even so, I decided to be with you. No matter what else you say, my feelings won’t change. Plus, doesn’t the Empire allow for polygamy? I think there’s plenty of chance for me.”

(It’s over…)

Since Shuvina wasn’t fazed by the fiancée situation, no further reasons I could come up with had any meaning, and given that she knew I was a noble from the Empire, there was a high chance she would follow after me regardless if I left her behind.

And since most noble children from the Empire take the entrance exam at Suzette Imperial Academy, it was all but guaranteed that we’d run into each other there.

“Do whatever you like. I’m tired, so I’m going to sleep.”

“Thank you! I’ll hurry with my preparations!”

Leaving her room, weighed down by an unfathomable mental fatigue, I could hear sounds of her packing from beyond the door.

“Ugh. I want to die. What am I doing with my life?”

Ultimately, I couldn’t persuade Shuvina, and dragging my heavy feet, I returned to my room.

And that night. When we told Cecil that we would be leaving the country the next day, she prepared a more extravagant meal than usual, inviting Kaylee and others for a grand farewell party.

~Side Shuvina~

Having decided to accompany Lewis, after the others had fallen asleep that night, Shuvina spoke with Cecil and Pale.

“I’ve decided to follow Eir!”

Shuvina slammed the wooden cup she held onto the table and gazed at her parents with eyes filled with determination.

“I see. I understand. Just try not to be a bother.”

However, while Shuvina had made her resolution, Cecil accepted it rather casually.

“Huh? You’re not going to stop me?”

“Why would I do something so pointless? It’s clear that your determination is solid, and it’s painfully obvious you have feelings for Eir. If he’s fine with it, we won’t say anything.”

“That’s right, Shuvina. I only realized your feelings recently, but I want to support your love. So do your best to have no regrets.”

“Thank you. Mom, Dad.”

Shuvina, overwhelmed with joy at being recognized by them, felt tears welling in her eyes as they gently embraced her.

“So, Shuvina. What do you like about Eir?”

“W-wait, what?!”

After a while of crying and calming down, Cecil grinned widely and asked her that.

“Fufu. I’ve always dreamed of talking about love with my daughter. I never thought it would come true this soon! So, what do you like about him?”

“Well… At first, it was just admiration. He’s top-notch in magic and martial arts, and I wanted to be like him. Plus, even when he seems lazy, during fights, he looks genuinely happy, which caught my attention, and I began wanting to know more about him.

But, as you can see, he has so many secrets and won’t open up to me at all, plus because of his situation with Lord Ryan, I’m even more confused about him.

Yet when I saw him fight the Hydra, I was moved. Everyone I knew fought to survive, and some ran away to escape when they looked like they might die.

But he never thought about escaping to survive or holding back for that reason—he fought with everything he had from start to finish.

Watching him made me realize what it truly means to live. It’s not about coming up with escape routes or fighting just to survive; it’s about putting your all into every single moment of living, risking everything as if you wouldn’t mind dying at that moment.

Even when he looked near death fighting the Hydra, he genuinely seemed to be having fun, and I thought his way of living was truly beautiful.

At the same time, I wanted to keep watching his life closely. I wanted to know what experiences he’ll have in the future and how it will all end.

By the time I realized that, I had fallen for him. No, I had liked him from the start. Back then, I think I was just afraid of losing him. So I would deny his values and ideas and didn’t want to accept them.

But that’s different now. Hehe. I must be weird, huh?”

As Shuvina spoke, it seemed she realized how odd her thoughts were, and she laughed self-deprecatingly.

“Honestly, looking at it from a general standpoint, your love seems quite heavy and hard to understand. But with someone like Eir, I think that’s exactly what you need.”

“Why’s that?”

“It’s just a hunch, but I believe his heart is already broken beyond repair. He’s probably discarded unnecessary emotions, leaving only the pursuit of his goals.

To hold a normal romantic feeling for someone like that would definitely be fruitless. The moment you try to distance yourself from him, he’ll surely disappear from your sight. So unless you have a strong resolve to never leave his side, no matter what, I don’t think you’ll fulfill your wish.”

“I see.”

Shuvina, who had feared her feelings would be rejected, felt warmth in her heart after hearing Cecil’s words.

“But, Shuvina. Following him is going to be a harsh road. I know because Stella said so. You might even end up dead. Are you prepared for that?”

Stella was the highest-ranked Star Spirit that Cecil had contracted with.

The Star Spirit is a powerful spirit with great offensive capabilities and can even use stars to tell people’s destinies.

“Yeah. I’m sorry to my dad and mom, but I can’t live without him anymore.

So, even if it costs my life, I’ll gladly give it up to be with him.

Plus, I originally intended to witness his life closely. A life without him has no value for me.”

“…I see.”

Cecil’s expression turned a bit sad after hearing Shuvina’s feelings, but she stood from her chair, believing no more words would be relevant, and hugged Shuvina once more.

“Shuvina. I’m sorry I couldn’t take care of you much when you were little. I’ve regretted that I made you feel lonely for a long time.

I love you from the bottom of my heart. Never forget that.”

“Yeah, I love you both too.”

“Fufu. Thank you.”

Afterward, while being embraced by Cecil, Shuvina received ample affection until she cried herself to sleep.